At the time of our lives when everything was nicely taken for granted and a ‘problem’ was something like we had no new dress to wear for the prom or the likes, we easily found joy, excitement and beauty around us.
Subsequently, as you grow older and your rose coloured lenses now become rather dusty, you start to question – what is life really about and what is our purpose in life. I myself had asked this question (to no one in particular) many times in the past 1 year.
And suddenly, God decides to answer my question and with it comes a big lesson.
After Vern’s passing, my outlook in life suddenly does a 180deg turn. As I quote from a book somewhere “We are dying from the day we are born“. SO? Even more so, life seems bleaker than ever. Then you read the news and everywhere, there is murder and evil doings. You shake your head in confirmation.YES, indeed, there is absolutely nothing beautiful in life, you think.
As I told Jeen recently, what can make us happy again after Vern left so suddenly and so cruelly? I felt that nothing I can possible achieve and do on our temporary life on earth will ever make me 100% happy – Never ever again. Maybe 95% happy but never truly truly 100% happy. How can we be? Knowing that Vern’s gone too soon and he isn’t here to enjoy it with us? He only managed to live until the age of almost 17! Has he enjoyed and experienced enough? What bad sin had he done to deserve his early passing?
Anyway, we have turned to God – I dont think he feels we should think life on earth is supposed to be a pitiful existence. We are supposed still to find joy and beauty in life – now just about the hardest thing to do. So how do we deal with this? Can any one answer me?